Maggie and Marilyn

Maggie and Marilyn

Our friend updates us on Maggie and Marilyn.

Marilyn, she says, is back to bouncing around like a crazy dog.

Maggie lost some weight. She is doing better, though. She ate half a can of wet dog food.

Michaela, Jean-Luc, and Humphrey are playing like there is no tomorrow.

We have to decide between cremation and burial for Alistair.

I think we are going with cremation and a lovely memorial stone for the garden.

We will always think of him.

Outtake from Alistair's 6 week profile picture.
"Picture? I thought you said it was play time!" - Alistair

Jean-Luc And Humphrey: Feeling Better

Jean-Luc and Humphrey are feeling better. They antibiotics seemed to have helped them a lot.

We gave Michaela a little bit, just in case. I didn't want her to come down with anything.

We all miss Alistair. There is a certain emptiness to the house without him in it. I can't stop thinking about him.

Just writing in this blog, now that I have only three, now that one of them is in Heaven, I feel guilty. Extremely guilty.

I tried to save Alistair. I did everything I could think of to save him. It wasn't enough.

I wish I could have done more.

Jean-Luc, Humphrey, and Michaela have all been playing today. Except for when they were sleeping off the antibiotic.

They are much improved.

We all miss you and love you, Alistair.

Rest In Peace, Alistair

A little after three the vet called me.

Alistair has passed away.

I can't even say it out loud.

When we went to visit him this morning, after we sang to him and prayed for him, I leaned close to him and I said softly, "Alistair, we both know you are Mommy's Little Fighter, but if you are tired of fighting, it's okay to let go."

We left the vet's office at eleven this morning.

I'll be working on a memorial for Alistair while I'm still in the shock phase, before the true grief sets in, the hard part.

The part where it feels like the world just stopped spinning and then fell on top of you.

It's so heavy there's nothing you can do about it.

Alistair no longer needs prayers. He is safe with Michi, Grandma, Dad, Cadence, Buffy, Lauren, Rachel, Alex, Michael, Mogwai, Stephanie, Clementine, Angelo(his brother who died at birth), Avery, Desi, Kimmy, Misty, and all the others who passed away before him. And they are having a party because Alistair is home.

He is no longer in a weak body.

He can finally, truly relax. He is not in pain. He is not suffering. He is not alone. 

For that I am thankful.

Still Sick

Alistair is still in the hospital.

Jean-Luc and Humphrey weren't feeling too good last night but we gave them pedialyte and they are doing much better this morning.

They ate food. They drank water. I gave them antibiotics.

We visited Alistair in the hospital.

He is still on IV Fluids.

He is being given dextrose for his hypoglycemia.

He is being given pain medication so that he will not be in any pain.

His chances are 50/50.

I didn't get to take their 8 Week Day Profile Pictures.

It would have been too weird. Only three here and the ones who are here, not feeling well.

There was no way I could do it.

I did take a few pictures today. 

The antibiotics have kicked in. 
Jean-Luc and Humphrey are sleeping.
Michaela is sleeping, too, even though she hasn't had any antibiotics.

8 Week Day; Hospital

Today is a bittersweet day.

Alistair, Humphrey, Jean-Luc, Magdalena, Marilyn, and Michaela are 8 weeks old today.

Magdalena and Marilyn are getting along fine in their new home.

I'm happy for that.

Alistair wrapped in blankets

Alistair went to the vet this morning.

He has a virus. 

They kept him in their little hospital. 

I'm scared to death.

I have never had to put one of my babies in the hospital before.

The difficult part is knowing he will be alone overnight.

I'm not happy about it.

He was so weak when we took him in this morning.

I'm praying for you, Alistair. You're Mommy's Little Fighter.

On a positive note we discovered that the puppies are half boxer.

The FIRST week

Collage celebrating week 1

Jean-Luc

Michaela and Maggie?

Michaela?

Jean-Luc

Jean-Luc was named by the Star Trek fanatic.

 We decided to give them temp names so we have something to call them by until they are old enough to find new homes. Their names are Alistair (Al), Humphrey (Bogie), Jean-Luc (Luca), and the girls are Marilyn, Magdalena, and Michaela but I like to say Mari, Maggie, and Mak.

Alistair is a name I liked.
Humphrey is after Mr. Bogart.
Jean-Luc is after Jean-Luc Picard.
Marilyn is after Ms. Monroe.
Magdalena is just a name I like and I adore the nickname Maggie.
Michaela is another name I like although Mom chose it. I chose the nickname Mak.